Here I am a week plus out from my ultramarathon wondering what race is next. On the horizon is back to school, big wedding weekend, and Cannon's homecoming. It is senior year for Tucker. Mom's 83rd year, and Tucker's 60th. Speaking of all the momentous occasions...Tucker will graduate in just a short time. We have a party to plan but first college essays, applications, and financial aid to fill out. With all of this going on, I should be exhausted and sleeping all night. Yet, I sit here after going to bed at 9, sleeping for a few hours then waking up, wide awake.
My thoughts are revolving around Cannon and Sarah and that damn ultrasound. I want to ask him about it, but I don't want to upset him. However isn't rehab the perfect place for him to be upset? Maybe he could talk with his counselor about the situation. hold on squirrel...
5 reasons I want to become the higher version of myself
1-I could probably run faster and further, or run farther faster if I was healthier
2. I would have a better attitude. Shit does not bother me when I am sober. I made it through the whole budget drama with a decent attitude. I was still anxious as hell. I could not watch a single lacrosse game without calling mom because I was just a bundle of nerves. What the heck?
3. for my kids. Cannon needs me to be sober or to hide it. That is what I fear. I will have to get totally sober or hide my drinking to support him. Tucker hates drinking and Campbell doesn't care for me when I am drinking.
4. a better relationship with Tucker
5. I just want to see what I can do
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