It is Tuesday and I have not stopped. I do not see a reason other than I have a headache everyday but it could be
I have not made the proper commitment for 75 Hard. I knew going into it that I was not trying to do the real thing. Here I am on Day 23 with only 9 alcohol free days and another 3 that are with less alcohol than before. So am I doing 50% better? Yes, a sober day is never wasted. Lol I just noticed what I did there. I am not sure if it is the crappy weather, the long stretch of school day after day after day, and just feeling bored and out of it ...
I am still feeling that way sitting here on Saturday morning. Thursday night I had 2 martinis and made a third but did not drink it. I woke up tired, cranky, and sore. Last night I came home from school took the dogs for 3.5 miles before eating leftover chicken parm and finishing the small martini from last night. I kept pacing around wondering what I would eat or drink. Nothing sounded good so rather than force something down, I went to bed at 7:50.
Getting up at 5:30-6am still does not feel right to me. It is too early, and I am exhausted by 4. To my credit, I made an effort to get to CrossFit during the winter, which really helped me. There is always so much to do. I need to just throw everything away and start over. I was thinking about what I want my life to be like. It is so flat right now. I say that I want friends but it requires going out and making an effort. Tonight (LATE) there is a get together to plan for a group graduation party. I have an idea of what I would like to wear, but the party starts at 7:30! How will I ever stay awake that long? yikes. Just get in the door and have a glass of wine. It will be good.
I wonder if I am tired because of the semaglutide. It was only a small shot.
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