The days are so long. What can I do with them if I do not fall into my vices?
Run, learn a skill, write, read, spend time with family
When I wake up in the morning, I feel like the day is so long stretching out in front of me. There are times I would like to just mellow the feeling.
Maybe. The power of maybe releases potential in ways that I had not thought about. My head goes to "never" or "always." Something "bad" happens and I place too much importance on it and I label it bad rather than thinking that this might lead to something better. Let me look at the maybe's in my life...
Tucker losing his job at WVA was a big baddy! That was a terrible time that took me down the road that I am currently on. June 2, 2019 when Tucker came home from work early while I was in the shower changed my life. Even today, I am afraid of him calling because it might be a call with dire news. However the long view is that Tucker losing his job allowed him to move to a school (FA) that appreciates what he does. It is also better for our kids because focusing only on ski racing is a bit too much. I like the variety they get at FA. The next maybe was New Hampton. I still remember being in bed looking up New Hamton jobs and seeing a math job up on the site. I told Tucker they were going to fire him. He asked point blank and the head lied saying we are always looking. Anyway...detaching myself from the opinions of others and from the fears will be good.
Right now I am in a hole
my hair is thin, I dont sleep at night
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