3/27/2023 Friday I had wine with lunch and about a bottle that night out to dinner then a glass at home. I awoke at 2am and said, I am done. This is stupid. All of the things I want are on the other side of wine time. Thursday night I drank almost a bottle and fell asleep watching tv and forgot to pick up CC. Luckily she wanted to stay longer, and it all worked out. But come on! Getting healthy, getting in shape, losing weight, getting a job...my drinking and anxiety (related) are holding me back. So I made the decision to stop.
Day 1 3/25 Saturday-Campbell had skiing. I worked out, took the dogs for a walk, and just wasted time all day. After dinner (steak and salad with hot metab), we went to the end of year party. Day 1 done. I had tea and magnesium before bed and felt good.
Day 2 3/26 Sunday-after about 8 hours of sleep I still felt tired. I got up and caught up on some blog cleanning, had breakfast took CC to the mountain and came home to continue researching, reading, and writing. I did not feel the need for a drink. As we packed up to go to soccer practice, I remembered the wine I had left in the fridge at the other house. It wasn't much so I thought I would just finish it off. At 5 I had a small glass of white and a small glass of red with mozz sticks. It wasn't very good, I threw some out. I guess that was a data point of maybe 2 glasses. Thought is that social media is just as bad as wine. I need to leave my phone in the other room to charge.
Day 3 Today-SS network talks about cravings and becoming more mindful of what is going on in my mind and body. What do I need? Am I stressed? Tired? Increase awareness and know that alcohol will only solve the issue for a short period. Find ways to work through these periods. Walk outside, deep breathing, stretch, tea, read, or do memory work! Swing the kettlebell! Drink water is good to.
4/4/2025 day 5 of 75Hard-Thank you for taking such good notes. I will return to Naked Mind to get all the reminders. Is this the way it should be? Returning to the spring cleaning of my body, my soul, and my mind? God created us to set up memorials and this is what I have created. Still working on the supplements but I have reduced my focus.
Elevation advice a sweat per day and order supplements-magnesium, EFA, L-glutamine powder, liposomal glutathione, and CBD oil
Naked Mind become more mindful of what I am telling myself and notice my emotions. Wine is not the answer to boredom, stress, or loneliness. What are you telling yourself? I think I used wine as a reward and time marker. "When I finish this I can have that."
Monday-exhausted. I took magnesium before bed and it must have been too much. My stomach was turning all night. I got about 7 hours of sleep. Feeling lazy and unmotivated right now, so I guess I had better get started. I am going to stick with this for the entire 30 days even if I have multiple data points, I will stick with the journals.
SS
Elevation you always have control over three things: your breathe, your posture, and your focus. Take control of these today. Is and not should.
Naked Mind
Elevation biochemical balance and nutrient support
GABA deficiency is common with continual alcohol consumption. Ethanol is similar to GABA so the body stops producing natural production of GABA. Excess Glutamate happens since no GABA to counter.
Have to clear up inflammation-minerals are depleted and must be restored
magnesium, vitamin B6, Glutamine, NAC and protein
nutritional yeast has B6
cold pressed braggs olive oil
endorphin stimulating activities help to replace alcohol as an option.
Day 3 PM I made it and it wasn't that bad
Breakfast-2 eggs, sausage, 1/4 bagel with butter. Lunch-hot metab, lunch meat, cheese, mayo, 1 slice bread. Snack 1/2 english muffin with PB and coffee. Dinner-3 breadcrumb encrusted chicken tender, fries, salsa and sour cream, AF margarita with juice of 1 lime and 1 orange. Kambucha
Lesson today-do not let yourself get thirsty. Keep the water and other fluids going. Learning about the brain during the NM talk today was really good.
Bible verse-Isaiah 55:11-13 so shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. For ye shall go out with joy and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands. Instead of the thorn shall come up the fir tree, and instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle tree: and it shall be to the Lord for a name, for an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.
I like this verse. God can take me with my thorns and rough edges and turn me into a whole new creature. Yes, he can get rid of the briars, but it is more because the fir replaces the thorn bush and the myrtle replaces the briar. This is a good step. I feel so calm but not as wandering as last time. I know that bad things don't always happen when I drink, but all the bad things that have happened to me have been in the presence of alcohol. What does that say? If I go back to a time when I did not drink or plan to drink for parties etc it would have to be 7th grade-8th grade. Yes, I got terribly drunk in Florida with those kids the same night Dad had an AA meeting when I was 14. Maybe I should put more blame on Dad for the drinking. Who knows...alcohol just seemed to be around. We tried to get a drink here and there. I did not know what drunk was so drinking a screwdriver like Dad was just a drink not let's keep going. Since high school, I just drank at every party, every bar night etc. Turning 21 was happy hour. I don't remember having alcohol in my place. Maybe...I just can't remember.
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